Today I get to take a psycho-sexual evaluation to determine how much of a deviant I am. Even if I were the most pure and innocent person to ever live there is still no way that the end result would state that I am as harmless as a gentle summer breeze. According to Ian the result is always a matter of degree. It will state that I am a deviant and from there it is a matter of degree indicating just how much of a deviant I actually am.
I hate this.
I'm more than a little scared, and there isn't a single thing about this evaluation that registers in the "This is a good thing to do today" category on my bucket list, but it is something that I have to do to get to the finish line on this trial, so at 10:00 I will leave to get evaluated. On the bright side I get to read the report before it goes to the court so I am at least aware of what they say.
I still hate this.
Tam and I are going to Twin once the eval is over so that I can get out of Pocatello for a day. I need to get away from all this, and though Twin is not all that far away, it is not here, and that is a good thing.
I'm scared.
Thursday was the one year anniversary of Tam and I starting to date. It is a date that we chose because neither of us could agree/remember the actual date. It was some time in July, around the middle. The day was kind of a bust as she had to work and I have been borderline depressed. I made a really good vegan meal for us and we enjoyed a romantic evening. Hopefully we will make this weekend a better memory.
I'm off to get evaluated. Pray for me if you are reading this ... I need it.
Cheers,
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